I don’t want to go back to full time work.
There. I’ve said it. Now feminists can roll in their graves, or come back as zombies to eat my brain.
But then again, isn’t being a work-at-home-mum (WAHM) a feminist thing to do anyway?
I never thought I’d be the type of person who wouldn’t want to go back to full time work, but apparently I am.
Having a child changes a lot of things. If I can keep doing what I’m doing right now, I’d be a happy woman. Working from home allows me the freedom to cover the things that need to be covered while hubby does full time work.
Because, let’s face it, aside from kids activities/needs, there are other things that need attention too – groceries, laundry, ironing, tidying up the house, doctor’s appointments. The list goes on and on. Getting these things out of the way during the week means our weekends are free for family and friends.
Being a WAHM isn’t easy though. Freelancing means I am on three or four projects at a time while juggling motherhood and house responsibilities. When my daughter needs a costume done, or there is a school activity that needs my attention, I have to change my schedule around to accommodate things. Sometimes, this means working on articles until midnight.
I have no help. I have no family nearby. I have to be superwoman. I could complain, yes. But I have found a good rhythm over the years so that I don’t get too overwhelmed by the things that I need to do. I even have time for Game of Thrones and The Walking Dead.
I did try doing the full time work for about two months. I didn’t like it. I didn’t like having to dress up and put make up on everyday. I didn’t like dropping my little one at daycare and not seeing her again till later in the afternoon (she was still a toddler then). I didn’t like all the chores compounded at the end of the week so that my weekend is a tiring mess of things to do. And, if I’m being really honest, I didn’t like waking up so bloody early in the morning.
I’ve spoken with other mothers who feel the same way as I do. It feels good to know I’m not the only one who feels like this, because there was a point when I thought wanting this home/work life thing makes me lazy. But then I realised the amount of stuff I have to do while working from home is so far from the definition of lazy. I think it borders on superhuman, really.
So, here’s hoping I get to keep doing what I’m doing right now. Because I really, really do love it.